Dreaming Amongst the Stars

               As I slipped away last night, I had the most peculiar dream.  There was a woman in my life who I never really looked at.  She is beautiful in her own way but She was just there to me, just another person.  In my dream she taught me something that I will never forget.  What she taught me was different, I have no words for it.  It was a feeling, an appreciation. It was a compassion for the individual creation of life.  I felt different.  I did not love this woman.

               In my dream we had met up while on holiday at a hotel near a beach.  Like every dream I ever had the day was gloomy and going into night.  We drank spirits together and talked.  We became attracted to each other.  We made love that night.  In my dream, a couple months had passed, she was pregnant.  I returned to the hotel to find her.  She broke the news to me.  I was in the middle of my life, girlfriend, college, work.  Then, she told me "We are having a baby together".  The way I felt was unexplainable.  I didn't love her, I didn't want her, she had nothing for me.  But, there was one thing that i did love.  That was our child being bared in her womb.

               I had created life, beautiful life.  I never knew this unborn child or his or her's mother but I loved it.  The simplistically of it was magnificent.  I loved for no other reason than the child just being in existence.
        
          One day, I very much hope to become a father.  I hope to bring life into this world.  I hope to see my child smile for the first time, I hope to be there for every moment of his or her's life good or bad.  Ready or not, I know I will love my child always and forever, even before they ever come into existence.  Even whenthey will be nothing but a mere thought among the stars, I will love you.

My Love for Her is like my Life, I'll Hold on to it till the End

Her beauty can not be captured by any mere picture nor words. A single photo is all I have left of her.  That and a memory is all I need for her to inspire me past all reasoning.  She is my Muse, my Siren,  my love, my life.  When I'm with her, there is no such thing as pain, No such thing as sorrow.  Life is perfect.  My heart belongs to her.  No other will it belong to.  When we are together, everything stops.  Time itself stands still.  It's just me and her.  She takes my breathe away.  Nothing else matters, no problems, no worries, no tears.   Just a smile and a chin up to tomorrow.  When I have her in my arms and she looks up at me. I lean over to whisper in to her ear "I'll never let go".

A Beautiful Insanity

I always wondered if she loved me.  Sometimes I'm scared I will never know.  Amongst all her imperfections she was always perfect to me.  Her personality gleams brighter than any star or light.  She is beautiful in all ways.  I want her.  I need her.  She rejuvenates me.  I feel loved more and more every word she speaks to me.  When I look at her, I feel hope, hope,not sadness, not pain, not fear, but hope.  It is a hope for happiness.  A hope for love.  I love her.  Anything she would ask and i would do it for her, no questions ask, no judgement.  She makes me happy.  I only smile because of her.  I only live for her happiness.  The day my life comes to an end, I only wish she be by my side.  I wish we could spend all our days in union.  No one gives my life more meaning than her.  I imagine us laying together in the sun.  The sun kissing her white skin.  Her eyes glistening as she glares into my own.  She slowly leans over to me and plants a small kiss upon my lips.  I reach over to her and bring her  body closer to mine.  She feels my warm breathe against her neck as I place kisses up along her neck slowly making my way to her lips.  We love each other, and we always will.  This is my beautiful insanity.